[ sep / 24 ]
[ hello world! ]
[ my first ever neocities nn blog ]
[ hey reader! this is my own little blog ill update from time 2 time. this is the get2knowme section (´ε｀) i currently have no exact name or pronouns, so just call me whatevr you want, or just call me by my username,, im idia shrouds lover and would prefer that all 'doubles' block me ( ´_ゝ`)ノ i am new to the radq community and hoping to find my true, full identity since ive very recently had a huge identity reset,,, please gently correct me if i ever say, do, or get something wrong!! ]
[ im really into typology and certain topics that i like to yap my face off about,, im also in a handful of fandoms, such as; twisted wonderland, code geass, and many fandoms revolving around yaoi, im a huuugee yaoi fanatic!! ]
[ did you know that i have a sideblog? my sideblog (queeridia) is for reblogging things like microlabels i have but dont care enough to reblog it on my main!! ill also coin some terms eventually,,, ]
[ sep / 27 ]
[ music player now + idia shrine soon!! ]
[ after ~2 hours of pain and tears, i now have a music playerrr!!!! now you can listen to my bad music taste automatically everytime u open my site up!!!!!!!!!! who cheered!1!! AND,,,,,, IDIA SHRINE SITE COMING SOON!! will take a bit since im guna take a lil break from adding stuff here (besides blog posts. Duh) and focus on coining terms && making friends ^_^^ i also gotta draw more ok,, im everything maxxing LEL, this is gen the happiest ive been in months!!! w/ the radqc and idia by my side, i gen do feel so much more free,,,, im just all smiles right now (,; ⩌ ;,) id also enjoy if any1 left stuff they want me 2 add on this site as well!! im thinking moar plushies,,, but i dont want it 2 be TOO crowded since this site is already supa mobile unfriendly (sorry mobile users (੭ ;´ ⌂ `;)੭♡) but im always open 4 requests!!!!! luv u whoevers reading this MUAH ]
[ sep / 25 ]
[ why does lust turn into wrath? ]
[ ive been thinking abt this 4 so many months.,,,, why DOES lust so easily turn into wrath?? when i rewatched the hunchback of notre dame, i started thinking this 1 question like. Everyday. ive even seen it in myself and other people where their lust for somebody would quickly turn into a burning wrath, i remember when stuff liek that happened 2 me it felt like being burned with an extremely hot iron all over my body,, it was honestly the worst ( ;´ - `;) but i wonder what causes it in people,, im thinkkinggg its a mix between entitlement && how both have a "hot" temper (despite them being on wayy different levels), and they both def have huge involvements with entitlement, which id say is almost on the same level despite it being for different reasons,, i jus dont know!!! im using all my brain juice for something so small Omg help me. but its so interesting,,,, i NEED to know how && why,, guhhh ]
[ i remember when i was thinking about which deadly sin i would be since thats fun to think about, and i was stuck between lust, wrath, and sloth at first.. i crossed sloth off eventually since i CAN do things very quickly and efficiently when its something that affects me or someone i deeply care about, and to me sloth is being so lazy to the point you cant do anything like that,, so i was stuck between lust && wrath!! i eventually ended up going with wrath since many of my negative behaviors && actions is fueled by wrath, but lust is kind of. Up there for me as well!!!!! im still so curious about why exactly lust will quickly turn into wrath for so many different rzns, buuut ive wasted enough months-worth of brain power on this small question Ok...... wait a 2nd rant just hit the towers ]
[ Hi. i lovelove loouuvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my little hikkikomori baby idia,, my entire laptop && phone theme is idia, im planning on buying a assload of ignihyde merch eventually, and i just wish i could talk to him somehow,, i feel so dysphoric knowing that we may never be able to talk while i am still in this world instead of the TWST world, where i belong. id defs be an octavinelle student,,, im thinking id meet idia by running into him wearing merch (im thinking a keychain,,) and he gets excited that a school full fulllll of normies actually has someone into the same stuff as him!!!! i think we'd both ramble together about the media and become friends quickly, buut i think itd be very carefully calculated by me to get closer to idia.. i HAVE to silently observe people for a few months before making a move to be their friend, but in idias case i quite literally love him to death so im thinking id observe him the entirety of our first yr of NRC together and make my move for friendship when we r 2nd yrs... anyways!!!!! when we become friends id be the sweetest of hearts towards him and always ask to hang out together, mayb even have sleepovers,, ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) i just wanna spend every second with him, the only 1 i can truly love correctly.. i never wanna hurt him, and id gen beat peoples asses if they messed w/ him or ortho (even though ortho can EASILY wipe out the average nrc student), but it is canon that little idiots do bully ortho.... id wipe the ground w them!!!! i just love idia so much, i hope that one day ill be able to go where i really belong with the body i belong in as well,,, being here in this world makes me so miserable, but for idia i will always keep waiting!! ( ˶´ ³´(ˊᗜˋ*)♡ ]
